Time is the one thing that everyone has yet no one has. We all have the same amount of hours in a day, but for some reason some people are always wishing for more. It seems to me that if those people had more, they still wouldn’t have enough. Unfortunately, I think I am one of those people.
Summer is usually looked upon as a time to slow down, relax, and maybe hang out by a pool with the kids. I know I was looking forward to a slower lifestyle this summer. I shouldn’t make it sound like I was as busy as during the school year. Really we only had soccer games to go to during the week, sometimes there were a few other things thrown in like appointments or visits to Grandma’s. With only a month left before the start of the new school year, hockey season, dance season, etc. why do I not feel relaxed, refreshed and ready to go? Perhaps it’s because I still don’t know what I’m going to do with my kids in the morning. Hubby & I both leave for work before 7am. That leaves us with the problem of who will watch the smallish kids and put them on the bus in the morning.
I have been stressing over this all summer. I could drop them off at Gram & Gramp’s before 7am and have Gramp drive them back home to catch the bus. But that scares me, Gramp’s driving isn’t all that…safe. I could ask to start work later to stay home with them in the morning, but I have school myself. If I started work later, then the days that I go back and forth to class I would end up working until 8pm. That would not only be a long day for me but then the hubby would have to deal with all of the chauffeuring back and forth to any extracurricular activities the kids have. There’s no way that hubby’s hours can be adjusted, unions won’t go for that.
Recently I’ve been contemplating putting school on the back-burner and shutting the gas off. If I don’t have to worry about the half hour drive back and forth from work on top of the hour and half long class, then starting work later wouldn’t be such a problem I could start work by 9 and still be home by 5:30. My main could remain on the kids (as it should be) instead of what assignments are due and when. I could potentially be in a better mood since I won’t need to work on those assignments later at night and could go to sleep at a decent hour. On the other hand, that will mean that all of my time that I spent on school instead of my family for the last few years will all be for naught. Those hours will all have been wasted. I hate wasting anything, especially precious time.
Until next time.