Today is the first day of the new semester. Well, actually it was Tuesday but I only have classes on Thursdays.
I have to say, I am truly terrified of this semester. I’m finally taking a class that I’ve been trying to get into for a few semesters but it scares the crap out of me. It scares me because I know I am going into this class completely clueless — not an idea of what I’m doing, a complete blank slate. But I know that other folks will be going in with prior knowledge of what is going on.
I’ve been in this situation before. I went in to a beginner Photoshop class thinking everyone would be on the same level but clearly I was the only beginner. It just added a little more stress, not because it was harder than I expected, but because it created a scenario in my head that I needed to be on par with these kids.
The first day of the semester is always terrifying for me, but I feel like I am walking into that scenario again. Yes, if in fact everyone knows how to do most of these things that I am hoping to learn, I can ask them for help. But, it’s always so awkward for me. I mean, I am 10 + years older than most of these kids. It just feels weird for me.
Oh well, wah, wah, wah, right? If all goes as planned, this will be the first day of my last semester. Ever.