It’s probably been almost a month since the last time I ran. My lack of motivation has been part laziness and part health. I know it takes time to build up endurance but I get discouraged when I can only run a mile and start having chest pains and get light headed. Not to mention, I’m just always tired. No matter what time I wake up I cannot get myself out of bed. I’ve even started setting my alarm for 10 minutes earlier just so I can lie in bed before forcing myself out.
I do plan on running again. I swear. But for some reason I always have an excuse—my knee is acting up, I have a migraine, I’ll run tonight when the temperature starts going down, I’ll go in the morning before it gets too hot…
My goal is to run a 5K. I know it’s not much to some, but it’s big for me since I’ve basically been in a nonphysical mode for the past 7 years. As a teenager I played soccer and ran a ton. That put a lot of strain on my knees resulting in a few surgeries to remove and smooth out the torn cartilage. At 28 I had so little cartilage left in my in knee that the bones were rubbing together. I had undergone a meniscus transplant to replace the cartilage that had been previously removed. This resulted in 3 months of no bending my knee, 6 months of no physical activity at all and a year of only light activity that would not chance any injury to my knee. After that I was too afraid of any future injuries and became a total couch potato. Fast forward to now and anyone can see why it’s been difficult for me to get motivated.
I am fully aware that my goal of a 5K this year may not happen and it is my own fault. I have plenty of excuses lined up, the best one being that I’ll be on vacation for 2 weeks. Thankfully my vacation will consist of a lot of walking!
Until next time…